Friday, October 8, 2010

Happy late birthday Gunnar!!

I haven't updated my blog lately but I will work on it! I'm actually working on it but just a little slow in the process. I have a ton to post from all the way back in March but things have been busy. We actually decided to home school Rohbi this year so that has become my full time job! Anyway, I've been thinking about my boys and really missing them. We went over to Boise to visit my in-laws a couple of weeks ago and we drove home on Gunnar's birthday (which was a Saturday) His birthday was September 25th and he turned 2!! We ended up going down to the boys' grave and bringing Gunnar a gift and visiting for a while. That place is so peaceful!! This time of year really sucks for me and I have been struggling but it has slowly become easier to deal with. I've been really weepy lately. Losing two babies 13 months apart really threw me for a loop and it has taken a lot to keep myself sane. Ruger's birthday is coming up on Halloween and it is something I've been dreading and looking forward to at the same time. I want to celebrate it and honor him but at the same time, it brings back all the bad memories and heartache of finding out we lost him and the memories of burying him.

Anyway, I just wanted to share that with you and wish my sweet baby boy a happy birthday!!

3 comments:

the nice one said...

amber, i've been thinking of you a lot lately. i am amazed by your strength! i'm praying for you during this tough time of year. Love you!

balesfamily said...

Oh Sweet Amber, this makes my heart ache for you. You are a strong, amazing women and I look up to you in so many ways. My thoughts are with you. I miss you!

Charee B Mcclellan said...

amber, you are such a great gal and a wonderful mother to that darling gal and those adorable little boys. thinking of you these days.